她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道歉。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。
其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。
其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。
你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，在别人面前她都是淑女。
而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。
于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。
于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。

要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。
因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。 因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。
你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。
她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。
她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下来。
请你张开你的耳朵，也请你打开你的心，去听她心里真正的呼唤，而不是她嘴里的口是心非。 她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上和心里。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。
如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。

在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。
可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。
你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。
不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。
要知道，你离去的时候，她的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。
越是安静战火就越传，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。
请给她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。
她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。
也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。
那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。
也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道歉

thank you for not allow me to lose..

Since long time ago, i was known as a guy who really know what i want, what am i doing. But, do i really know what i want? do i really know what am i doing? Honestly i say, i don't know how come some people give me such evaluation. Until one day, you told me the reason, it is because of my mindset...hmm, i don't know how should i accept the reason you gave me, because it sounds like i am special, instead i just wanted to be ordinary. Anyway, i do believe someday i will face some conditions where i can't exactly know what i want, what am i doing, what path should i take.

After ended our middle school, you took your path, i took my another path, we get separated but we stay connected via msn and sms. You worked in different companies and you experienced something different as i did, as i took the path to further study to be a profession. You told me your experience so that i can learn more and grow mature faster. I told you my university life so you can feel the university environment as you gave up the path to further study. However, your life seems polluted by a lot of  dark colour incidents, difficulties in workplace and financial burden. I be your listener, sharing your feeling and i gave your advices. Sometimes even i do not know whether my advice useful or not.  But at the end, you will always said to me "thank you, you are really a good friend". In my heart, i having doubts for the words i gave you, i afraid i gave you the wrong advices but i'm happy that you feel better. I sensed that you knew, but you never ask me, mostly because you already knew the reasons i kept the "question marks" just for myself. You and me can talk about anything, we can teach each other something new, we grow mature together and we become best friend for each other.

That "someday" arrived again around half a year ago, this time i totally lost control of my feeling and i can't think properly. I felt so upset and i almost fall down. I talked to nobody because i don't how, how to trust people with such matter, what opinion will people give me and affect me in making decision. But you sensed that i was in trouble just simply via our msn chatting, then you said to me " Last time you always be my listener, my advisor. This time, let me be your listener, be your advisor. Your bright future still far ahead, i won't allow you to lose at here". Thanks to you, i manage to stand still until now.

The first time I was betrayed by one of my best friend 4 years ago, i lost trust in people, but you showed to me that you are worth for me to trust. You showed to me that this world is not as terrible as i knew, you teached me to learn to trust people again. Because of you, i learn to be stronger, i learned to be more mature, i learned to live smart and i found the reason where i can't let myself fall down no matter what, it is all because of you. Thank you my friend, thank you for not allow me to lose..

Thank you.

new year, 2010 countdown

31dec 2009, the last day of the year before humanity step into year 2010, i was supposed to go out for count down celebration with my coursemates. However, the outing was cancelled due to the numbers of people that unable to join us for the count down. From a group of 6 persons reduced to 3 persons and hence my friend decided to cancel the outing. However, i received a sms from one of my friend asking me to go out for count down celebration after that. I thought since I might boring at home too, so I decided to go out with her.

Ordered side dishes

We went out for japanese food during dinner and then we went to a shopping mall for a walk. It has been quite long time I didn't go out for such relaxing outing, it helped me to release stress and clear all the messy matter inside my mind. That night, I was able to put down everything in my mind, all the burden on my shoulder and have a wonderful night. Some more, my friend always know how to cheer me up and be my listener, gives me suitable advices.

Around 11.30pm, we drove to a place near a shopping mall that got fireworks performance on 12am midnight. 3, 2, 1..., year 2010 arrived and the fireworks started. The fireworks performance was very beautiful, it covers the dark cloudy night with colourful and varieties of "flower". Standing below the sky, watching the fireworks performance, we felt like we were the characters of a romantic story.

After that, I fetched my friend went home and dropped in my friend's house for a drink and chat awhile. I reached home at 2am and straight went into bed because too sleepy. It was an enjoyable countdown outing afterall...^^